On my way to the airport home sweeet home in a few hours quite excited but I am exhausted haven't slept in over 49 hours :( getting sick and quite frustrated with current situations... So I will write again in a better mood HOPEFULLY uuuugh! :(

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HAPPY

21st Birthday

I am now legal to purchase alcohol...Soooooooo I went to the liquor store and did purchase some bottles.... But guess what? No one asked for an ID ha ha :S kinda SUCKS... However, I had a wonderful thanksgiving dinner with my cousins, sister, Marcus and close relatives.... We had turkey, gravy, stuffing, potato salad, yam puree, spinach/lettuce/walnut/cucumber salad, and bread not to mention enough alcohol. I am thankful for many things... I am just missing that special someone.... I just wish for once, wishes came true... Can and will they ever come true? 

RECO

• If you love me, let me know, if not GENTLY let me go!
• I want to be the girl he gives his hoodie to wear, cuddles up next to when its cold. He'll come up behind me whisper in my ear, YOU look beautiful.
• There's a little truth behind every just kidding, a little curiosity behind every just wondering, a little knowledge behind every I don't know, and a little emotion behind every I don't care. 
• All I want to do is fall asleep in your arms & wake up to the warmth of your body next to mine. 
• Lord, grant me the strength to accept fucktards I cannot change.
• Everyone says that love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. People confuse these things with love, but in reality LOVE is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again.
• Here's to the guys we stalk, the crap we talk, the way we shop, laugh we can't stop, the gossip we spread, looks that could kill, we'll stay together, cause we will be friends forever. 
• Expect the best, be prepared for the worst, fuck what others think, and do your own damn thing. 

SouthWest

So True

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Little 1

Celebrated my sis bday :) Happy bday little one turning !( 19 ... hope u enjoyed it very much... Drinks at midnight .... early wake up, room service, hungover, shower... Walking on the rain... LV Bag, Burberry Coat, RL scarf..... Oishii Boston, Movie theater 


I believe and Think you did enjoy  

MotherHoodOCean

Mother India

Video Haven't Yet

Haven't Met u YET!

I'm Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
I've Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
And Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Mmmmm ....

I Might Have To Wait
I'll Never Give Up
I Guess It's Half Timing
And The Other Half's Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It's Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Mmmmm ......

And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

They Say All's Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won't Need To Fight It
We'll Get It Right
And We'll Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Mmmm .....

And Someday I Know It'll All Turn Out
And I'll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I'll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get

Oh You Know It'll All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven't Met You Yet

I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Blondes Are NOT STUPID

80,000 blondes meet in the Kansas City Chiefs Stadium for a "Blondes Are Not Stupid" Convention. The leader says, "We are all here today to prove to the world that blondes are not stupid. Can I have a volunteer?" A blonde gingerly works her way through the crowd and steps up to the stage. The leader asks her, "What is 15 plus 15?" After 15 or 20 seconds she says, "Eighteen!"
Obviously everyone is a little disappointed. Then 80,000 blondes start cheering, "Give her another chance! Give her another chance!" The leader says, "Well since we've gone to the trouble of getting 80,000 of you in one place and we have the world-wide press and global broadcast media here, gee, uh, I guess we can give her another chance." So he asks, "What is 5 plus 5?"
After nearly 30 seconds she eventually says, "Ninety?"
The leader is quite perplexed, looks down and just lets out a dejected sigh -- everyone is disheartened, the blonde starts crying and the 80,000 girls begin to yell and wave their hands shouting, "GIVE HER ANOTHER CHANCE! GIVE HER ANOTHER CHANCE!"
The leader, unsure whether or not he is doing more harm than damage, eventually says, "Ok! Ok! Just one more chance -- What is 2 plus 2?"
The girl closes her eyes, and after a whole minute eventually says, "Four?"
Throughout the stadium pandemonium breaks out as all 80,000 girls jump to their feet, wave their arms, stomp their feet and scream...
"GIVE HER ANOTHER CHANCE! GIVE HER ANOTHER CHANCE!"

Everyday.

Had it All

All this time

The Hangover

One of the worst kinds of feelings... Oh Dear.... We all say, "I am never drinking again". But that is just bull-crap isn't it?
We stop for a day, a week, or maybe a month.... But we never really stop....  We'll we do but until we HIT rock bottom... I must say I am not there yet...I am just enjoying life with all it's perks.

Stuck

Can't move because I got that stupid gut "feeling" that if I take another step I will fall into that deep and dark scary 'WORLD' A world full of surprises... So let me tell you that if you do not like surprises you will have a hard time...................... HA! NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT...


xoXO....

ANGRY

YOU do not get to be angry at me OK... You have no right to be angry at me. If one of us should be angry that person SHOULD BE ME... I had to deal with you and all of your BS. So, NO you do not get to be angry at me and bitch at me... NOT TODAY NOT TOMORROW NOT EVER...Have a NICE FREAKING DAY, I AM DONE.

Stand UP 4 Cancer

I miss you L-O-V-E

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Oh!

Love Hurts Ignore it!

Quotes S. Unknown

1) “'You'll get over it...' It's the clichés that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life for ever. You don't get over it because 'it' is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not erased by anyone but death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no one else can fit. Why would I want them to?”


2) “Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something”


3) “Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself”


4) “Why love if losing hurts so much? I have no answers anymore; only the life I have lived. The pain now is part of the happiness then.” - Anthony Hopkins


5) “Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” - Neil Gaiman


6) “People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.” -Jim Morrison

My Heart

I have a heart...
Tengo un corazon que siente... Y siente mucho pero la gente no lo entiende, los hombres le temen pero aun asi juegan con el. Como si fuera otro juguete de su coleccion... Una vez que lo tienen ya no lo quieren y como objeto de su coleccion o lo olvidan, lo regalan, o lo botan... Pero nunca lo guardan y mucho menos lo miran como objeto de valor o admiracion. Ayyyyy este pobre corazon ... Pronto dejara de sufrir (es lo que dicen) ....

HATIN'

Why is there so much hate around? Have you ever heard about LOVE AND PEACE?
I must say some people need to start looking up this terms and even better I suggest they should practice them more often :) <3 <3 

Are all the good 1s taken?

Is it possible that there are still some loyal, loving, and caring men out there? Or are we out of possibilities? I've heard so many times "There is plenty of fish in the sea," but are you people really right? Because so far I don't find that expression to be true... Not for me... Not for most people... I believe most of the good ones are taken... But why are all the others hiding? Come out, come out wherever you are... Because we won't bite! 

Call me call me Call me....

Call me Baby,

Call me Darling,

Call me Love,

Call me Sweetie,

Call me Anything & Everything

But please P-L-E-A-S-E

Don't go breaking my heart

I can't take it anymore,

No more heartbreaks!

No more heart mends!

I've had enough and

Today I finally gave up

I gave up on you

Because you gave up on me

A LONG TIME AGO

And I don't have the strength to fight back

Not anymore... Not ANYMORE

Today I say goodbye, Goodbye to you, Goodbye to everything you offered.

Goodbye!

Something I found...

Candles burn to strengthen my will,
.........................................................

I banish thee pain

........................................................

Bring passion, joy, and fire,
Hear my hearts desire,
Universe and Mother Earth,
Heed this cry.
So as above,
So below.
Heavens mote it be,
Bring my be-loved back to me

......................................................

Queen of Heaven

Queen of Hell

......................................................

Let the hurt be done,
Begin the mend,
The time is now for this loss to end.
By the God and Goddess I will it be,
Let my love .... see........................

Paths...

I must say that in the past few days I have been meeting people... and they all keep leaving footprints.... fingerprints... paths... all sorts of prints in my life... and that makes me very happy... I hold them dear in my heart <3<3 cheers to that.

Everybody hurts...

This is a TRULY SAD SONG.... What is going on through his head writing this lyrics? Any thoughts people?


I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

HURT- Jon. $$

BE C-A-R-E-F-U-L . . .

Be careful...

"It is said that if you know your enemies and know yourself,
you will not be imperiled in a hundred battles; if you do not
know your enemies but do know yourself, you will win one and
lose one; if you do not know your enemies nor yourself, you
will be imperiled in every single battle."

-- Sun Tzu

It is said to keep your friends close, but your enemies closer... yeah I dare to say this... I have tried it... keep them very close...